Mindless chatter
I have become incredibly aware this week of how much I think about throughout the day that is just so, well silly. It’s just kind of crazy to me how much room in my brain is taken up by chatter, sweeping thoughts that steal my attention. I think it takes a lot of this to make me realize that I’m not actually thinking about things that are important. I have to spend a good few days…weeks…thinking about all these little details in my life that I really like to pretend I have control of. I have to get a good amount of anxiety and fear of losing control built up before I realize how dumb I’m being. Before I realize how resilient I am being. I will admit how incredibly hard it is-at any time-to accept how gracious God truly is, and how much control He has verses how little I try to hold on to. But when I do really grasp this, it is like a breathe of fresh air. The thought that I truly don’t have to worry about anything. That He actually commands us to give Him our burdens and have peace over the things that worry us. What a relieving and grace-filled thought. Though it doesn’t take long for me to start worrying again, it is those brief moments of overwhelming peace and joy that reminds me how great God is and how blessed I am.
